Pregnancy and baby loss awareness month

Last November I miscarried at 10 weeks. And it was horrfic. And horrific because I had no idea what to expect. I remember the beginning so vividly. I was chatting with my very close circle of online friends about how I was going to approach the medical side of things with this pregnancy. I wanted…

Hospital Love, Hospital Hate

Odd feelings and thoughts walking through hospitals. I spent some of my babymoons with both my babies in hospital. Full 3 weeks with Bryn and the majority of the first week with Rafferty. It really is a love/hate relationship – so much bad and traumatic stuff (to me and my babies) but also I suppose…

The One Precious Gift

The lovely Catherine, a dear friend and who Tweets for Bryn’s Helping Hand, tells her story of expressing breastmilk for her daughter Pumping for L   When my first baby was born, nothing went entirely to plan, certainly not my plan anyway. I’d planned and lined up my natural home birth, I’d done the lessons…

Kangaroo Care Awareness Day (a bit late)

It was Kangaroo Care Awareness day a couple of days ago – and I missed it because I was ill in bed. The other day marked 2 years since Bryn died and I have filled facebook with his picture, which makes me smile. But I had an idea for a post about our experiences of…

Recipes raise funds!

Quick, quick, quick post as we must leave the house in 20 minutes – but I need to say this! During May we are asking people to send in their family Favourite recipe so we can create a recipe book to sell and raise funds for Bryn’s Helping Hand so we can support families of…

Feathers

                                  We (that is me and Bryn’s brother) often see tiny little white fluffy feathers when we are out and about. I once told Rafferty that some people think these feathers are left by their loved ones who have…

A bit about Bryn

So much about Byrn’s pregnancy was about what was wrong with him. So many scans, detailed viewings of his heart and how that worked (slightly differently to normal), the signals that he had Trisomy 18, his omphalocele, his smallness, his lack of movement – the enormous amount of fluid I carried. I made an effort…

18th March Trisomy 18 Awareness Day

On day 5 of Bryn’s life the much awaited results of his genetic test were due. Delayed because of the weekend – so it was a Monday. Time goes slow in hospital – everything takes a long time, much waiting, slowed movements, dulled thoughts. It’s like living inside a box – you can see your…

Living in the Now

Living in the now – so often talked about – and sometimes hard to keep to – well actually very hard to keep to. We have such busy lives with lots of plans/ideas/dreams to accomplish its hard not to think of the future. And such a difficult time with letting go of the past, forgiving…